Lewis Hamilton says he won’t share the truth about what happened at this season’s Spanish Grand Prix until after he retires from the sport.
The British and his team-mate Nico Rosberg made contact for the first time this season on the opening lap of the Barcelona grand prix.
Both drivers retired as a result, putting an end to Rosberg’s winning streak and appearing to land another blow to their relationship.
The Mercedes team-mates have since made contact in two other races, Canada and Austria, with the latter forcing Mercedes to revise their rules of engagement.
However, rather than just being two drivers fighting for the lead on the opening lap, Hamilton has hinted that there was perhaps more behind the Spanish GP incident.
Motorsport.com quotes him as having said during a live streaming event for UBS: “When I was younger, if I had a bad race, I was so hard on myself, it was a real negative.
“I remember some races, I wouldn’t leave my hotel room for three or four days – not speaking to anyone, not being on my phone. I was just trying to get myself out of this dark place I’d be in.
“Then somehow I’d pop out of it and turn it into a positive. You’ve got to look at the situation, you’ve got to try and find the positives from it and leave the negatives behind.
“I look at Barcelona for example this year, it was a massive low for me. There’s things that you won’t know until I retire that I’d tell you what I experienced.”
The triple World Champion, who after his fourth race win of this season at the British GP now trails Rosberg by a single point in the race for the World title, reckons he has developed better mental strength as well as ways to deal with any disappointment.
“The next day, I got up and I went for a run, and I’m thinking about lots of different things and it’s crazy to think that the 43-point deficit that I had at the time, which seemed impossible [to close],” he continued.
“I’m only human, those days I feel like it seems impossible, you’ve just got to keep going as painful as it can be and as hard as it can be. You might get over it quickly, sometimes it takes longer, but you’ve just got to keep going.
“Honestly I feel I’m stronger now. I have those days where it feels like the world’s coming to an end, I’m never going to win this championship, blah, blah, blah. Look where I am now, one point behind in the championship. If I had given up at any point, it shows you to never ever give up, no matter what.”
The Brit added: “In terms of mentally, I love the challenge of the battle with myself. Only I know what’s going on in my head. I just find my way, sometimes it takes longer to dig yourself out of something, it takes longer to understand. I never let anyone interfere with my mental process.”
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